Part 1: Oh, no! Not My ID!
Probably Trump’s greatest contribution to the sociological and psychological evolution of homo sapiens is his showing that self-promotion without guilt or feeling goosebumps can catapult you to heights, even all the way to the highest post in the most powerful country in the world. Following his narcissistic lead then and my new path to a more “evolved” homo sapiens in this regime, I have written this first part of two parts of this blog as an ode to my most favorite person in this planet: me. We’ll talk about the second part in my next blog but first, let’s talk about me. Hey, just for fun.
If you love me, you would read on. If you’re not sure of what to think and feel, maybe you can endure reading the whole thing just out of curiosity. If you couldn’t care less and would rather wisely use your time on making more money, no hurt feelings here, just skip this and see you in my next blog. If you’re beginning to throw up, gooooo!
You’re sticking around? Then, enjoy the ride. You see, it’s now or never. I have to publish this now , November 7, 2017 at 7:45 PM because I’ll soon be celebrating my birthday next month and as I continue to keep on pushing 70 next year, the pull of gravity might have finally already won over me.
Thanks to Facebook, I have become more conscious of how I look both in person and in print. On a good day (after a deep, uninterrupted sleep, or on a sunset with its afterglow, or while listening to Bruno Mars or after a race with my grandson or on weekends when I have lots of time to generously cover my face with moisturizer and tiny slaps of Smashbox Glow on my cheeks), my wrinkles seem to vanish and my complexion acquires that flush that makes my pictures look like they’re photo-shopped.
On one of those days, a good friend posted pictures she took of me. Soon “likes” rained and I received compliments from my nieces and nephews (who else?) whom I used to nanny when they were toddlers and tutor when they were in grade school and from friends whom I helped to find either good jobs or husbands. They all seemed to have chimed in chorus “You look so youthful.”
I drooled over the kind words before my husband who, unfortunately, cannot use make up to cover his wrinkles because it is against his gender. So, his only chance to not envy me is usually to teasingly pluck me out of my world of delusions and pull me back to earth. This time, he offered his unsolicited explanation of the compliment. He said: “What it really means is that you look young even though you’re actually very old.” Ouch! That hurt! I had to pinch him a teeny weeny pinch with my sharpest nails to get even.
Recovering from the hubby’s painful reality check, I gathered back the scattered pieces of my broken ego and defiantly gave myself affirmation: “…at least I look young.” Then I winked at my image in the mirror under flattering yellow lights while I happily thanked my fairy godmother. I thought she’s done a great job doing overtime to make me look like a college senior still (I’d like to think) while I’m already in my AARP-overqualified senior year.
In my office, the yellow overhead lights also somehow give my skin a soft glow and its faint shadows reduce my pores. Thanks, too, to the gene in me of Asian women who seem to have loosed themselves from the pull of gravity, I swear I look like I’m only in my late thirties under those yellow lights, or I’d like to imagine anyway. That was probably what a middle-aged adjuster guessed –or imagined– my age was when he saw me walk past the waiting room where he sat. When I settled at my desk, I used my peripheral vision to see what he was doing while waiting for me to call him in. He ran his fingers through his hair, then he fixed his collar and pressed his necktie in place against his chest.
When he stood, he arched his back like a peacock, a sure sign according to psychologists that hmm he was trying to look nice before someone he found attractive enough to also want to attract. Or, was it again just my imagination ?
Anyway, after the introductions, he said that his interview of me could be used as an important legal document for a case he was working on, so could he please ask for my ID? Hmm, I gave him an A for creativity in coming up with that business-like line to ask for a woman’s age without showing disrespect.
So, I had to give him my ID?!!! Darn. There was nothing my fairy godmother could do to hide the truth. I gingerly handed the adjuster my ID which took a year for me to find in my purse. He held it and, probably finding my year of birth, he let out an involuntary “Oh” accompanied by dilated pupils.
Then we both laughed not sure of the reason why we laughed. Perhaps he laughed because of the unexpected reality he discovered in my ID and I laughed because as I anticipated, he had a funny reaction to his discovery.
When I recounted the funny experience to my hubby while we were in bed that night, he chuckled in delight. For some sadistic reason, he loves it when things and people conspire to stop my ego from exploding and my head from swelling out of control. Laughing, he said: “Buti hindi n’ya binagsak sa mesa ang ID mo na parang may nahawakan s’yang mikrobyo.” (Good thing he didn’t drop your ID on the table as if he accidentally held something with microbes!”) I said, “I would have killed him!” as I used my pillow to muffle hubby’s hearty laughter until he almost died.
At a busy clothing store on a weekend, I found myself in a long queue to the cashier. I was in my haltered pink top and white not-too-short shorts. My shades were big enough to hide my slowly growing eyebags and I wore a headband that kept my hair in place and allowed strands of short hair to cover a deepening wrinkle on my forehead. Big curls colored soft dark mahogany by God’s gift to baby boomers—the hair dye— brushed against my shoulders to give me that carefree look.
A young store staff, fresh from his break, opened a cash register and called me, “Miss, I can help you.” Thankfully, I left the line and gave the young man the clothes I was purchasing. As he removed the security pins from the clothes, he turned on his charm as he said the canned, “Did you find everything you need, Miss?” I kinda tilted my head to the side and purred a “Yes” to match his sweetness.
Then he asked holding my VISA card. “Are you paying debit or credit?”
I said “Debit.”
Then he asked: “May I see your ID?” Fairy godmother! What the ….? I knew cashiers in that department store ask for an ID only when the customer is buying on credit! I was buying on debit–good as cash! Young man, what are you trying to find out???
As he studied my ID, he sort of paused, looked over his right shoulder and seemed to have inhaled deeply. He was probably thinking: “God, forgive me. I was hitting on a woman older than my mother! ”
Then as he handed me back my ID and the bag of clothes I bought, he said, “Okey, Ma’am, you’re all set!”
From sweet “Miss” to respectful “Ma’am!” The transition, though out of kindness, was a knife slicing through my chest. I sensed the veil of illusion lifted and there I stood, braving the sudden confrontation with aging me. Suddenly I saw, cruelly exposed, my cellulites, stretch marks and sagging breasts. I thought I did not need that kind of respect which only reminded me of something I have physically irrevocably lost. I remember then what my funny but insightful best friend, Lourdes “Odette” Lacuna, jokingly asked when we were pining for our lost youth: “Where are those guys who disrespected us by whistling like wolves whenever we passed by? I kinda miss being disrespected that way now.”
Alas, those times are now a distant memory, as Jurassic as the glory -that -was-Greece-the-grandeur-that-was-Rome kind of past.
We can now feel the Autumn chill figuratively and literally piercing our arthritic bones and making what used to be candle-shaped fingers already looking like crabs’ legs. Thoughts of mortality creep up in our beginning-to-be foggy brains as Forest Lawn and cremation also slowly begin to creep up in our conversations.
We console ourselves with words like “age and wrinkles do not define me.” But knowing that we have gained in wisdom with the years offers faint consolation. If asked to choose between wisdom and youth, in a heartbeat, I’d choose both!
Odette’s late Dad, our equally funny and wise “Papang Elias Lacuna, said it succintly when, in my late twenties, I told him how I envied him for being retired and could already do as he pleased. He looked me in the eye and said seriously: “If you like, we can trade places.”
Meantime, why dwell on those dark thoughts when we can still savor and celebrate the last few lingering illusions of youth?
I joyfully recall then with shameless titillation (hey, I’m not perfect!) that recent Sunday morning when hubby and I walked in our church and our Eucharistic Minister leader, Greg Snyder, teasingly asked him, while looking at me: “Why did you bring your daughter along with you today?
With St. Jane Frances de Chantal Eucharistic Ministry leaders Greg Snyder (left)
and Jim Petrini (right).: “Looking youthful is a blessing.”
Another Eucharistic man, Jim Petrini, chimed in and told me:: There are those who look older every year, you’re an expert in looking younger.” (I have named them with their permission –with pictures to boot –as evidence that these incidents are not just my fairy godmother’s tales.)
Greg seriously reminded me: “Looking youthful is a blessing.” I thanked him for the precious reminder.
Those remarks are music to my ears nowadays when I still try to “rage against the dying of the light” even as I careen to the age of irrelevance and obscurity.
“When holy men speak, you better believe,” I whispered smiling naughtily to my hubby as we sat on the pew.
Raising his hands as his defenses got demolished by the holy men, the hubby gave in: “Okey, you win.”
As the priest entered, he whispered while leaning close to me:
” ‘Just pray they won’t ask for your ID.”
Next blog: Part 2: Secrets of Staying Youthful From FB Friends
Sis Lori, your inner beauty radiates, that is why you look a lot younger than your age. ❤ ❤
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Thank you, Sis Allen. As I wrote you, I’m always inspired by you. You are so kind and pretty and manage to look like a high school senior no matter how hard you work and how late you sleep. Keep smiling and inspiring us.
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“Hope springs eternal in the human breast.” ~Alexander Pope☺
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Pareng Raymond, I remember what you wrote me about what you wish for me as a writer kaya panay ang practice ko. I earnestly hope….Thanks for the vision you planted in my brain.
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My dear Lori,
Once again you have charmed your readers with a woman’s epic adventures on maintaining her sanity, in different directions,as her advancing years unfold.
Us friends, together with you wrestle the same experiences. Indeed, the onslaught of the aging process, can be a boon, or bane! Although, there are many things in life that we cannot change,we shouldnt give up to change what we can, right? Honey, aging will really force us to catch up with the latest technologies on skin ardthetics, physical fitness program, etc. which will be kind to the part of ourselves that has been
ravaged by time! But, yes, i will always include you in my bucket list of exceptionally beautiful women i know whose inner and outer beauty shine, even if all the lights have faded out!
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My dear Zina, thank you once again for this beautiful feedback. You never cease to amaze me as you keep your youthful and captivating looks at our age. You prove that whatever you work on positively, responds beautifully. You have proven that If you take care of yourself and your looks, you produce great results. Keep on inspiring me and others who see you as a vision of youth and ageless beauty.
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So hilarious! Enjoyable read! Aah,those precious moments ! Keep them coming, true or not,they tug at the heartstrings!
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I realize now that our chats plant precious nuggest of wisdom and humor in my brain. Let’s keep chatting so I can come up with more blogs. You and Cindy are among my most inspiring and enriching favorite people, my Bff.
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Your vibrant personality comes through in this piece, Lori. It has REJOICE written all over it. It is not narcissism at all, but enthusiasm for life, and it is contagious. We love it!
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Thanks once again, Ruth, for these kind words. Your wit and infectious humor must have influenced my writing style ’cause I have you in mind as one of those I chat with as I write my blogs. Thanks for keeping me inspired.
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Aunt Lori, I hope you delight in your wrinkles and see them as blessings, for every wrinkle means you’re closer to being young forever with all your loved ones in heaven, with neither death nor old age to threaten you. 😊 We were never meant to stay young here on earth or hold on to our youth, in fact, we should should let it go. St. Paul says “One thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ.”
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I love you even more, my dear apo sa pamangkin, for these wisdom-filled comments. Yes, Jay, I will remember to let go and love every wrinkle, every cellulite that will come my way. Continue to have the discernment of St. Paul. Take care and I wish you the best of everything!
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This was a delight to read! Thank you Lori, for sharing this. BTW you’re look amazing for someone approaching 50! 😉 This coming from Maui’s oldest living mermaid (53). Still swimmin’ in the ocean w/my mermaid fin! Lol Thx for reminding me that a joyful heart works better than medicine & our youth is renewed like the eagle! This tickled my heart today. 😘😆
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Hi Geri, Thank you for this comment which is a delight to read! Glad to know your heart is smiling because of this ego-tripping blog. Nothing like loving ourselves to keep aging at bay and I’m so glad that obviously, this somehow eased the pain of recent loss. I believe Tito Cip left us his joyful spirit and his youthful outlook as his priceless legacies.
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Thank you, Geri, for this comment which is a delight to read. I’m so glad that your heart is smiling because of this ego-tripping blog. I’m happy to see that somehow, I helped ease the pain of a recent loss. Our sense of humor is obviously a priceless legacy of your Dad’s youthful and joyful spirit. Keep writing!
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